Dragging my left foot.

For so long, I lived to care for David.  To see to his needs.  To make sure that he didn’t interfere with the needs of others.

 

Today was a hard day.  I spent the day with my daughters.  I forced myself to walk around the mall for a little while.

Everything hurts.  I never really paid attention to the affect that David had on my health.  I feel so ANGRY.

but then.

 

I remember.  and everything was worth it.  Because David is  my son, I would give everything I am for him.

There are times when I step down on my left leg and wonder if it is there.

I am struggling to get into the van a little.  the left leg always seems to get hung up.  I actually have to grab it by the knee and move it into the van on days when I am really tired.

My oldest noticed today that I am not dragging my left foot as much.  I am making a conscious effort to not drag it, since she noticed a couple of weeks ago that I drag that foot when I walk.

 

I guess, with David out of the house and in a safe place, I need to focus on me for a while.

Why does that thought make me feel guilty?

 

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2 Responses to Dragging my left foot.

  1. You shouldn’t feel guilty for now having the time the think of yourself! You have thought of nothing but your family and David for a very long time.. Its a little overdo for someone to think of you and your needs.

  2. As a parent, of course you feel guilty, but he is getting the help he needs. In order for you to be the best father you can for your girls, you have to look out for your health. Get some rest and ease your mind a little. Your job is far from done, and you must be exhausted. Focus on you for a bit. You deserve it.