Category Archives: autism spectrum disorders

what do you do when…

your child is manic and goes running down the street into traffic yelling, just kill me? We had the start of an episode tonight.  I ignored it.  I walked away.  I turned the other cheek. Every time I refused to acknowledge the behavior, the behavior escalated. David started spraying something that we later learned was… Continue Reading

Every Parent of a Mentally Ill Child Has This Fear

I don’t know how it is in most families, I just know in mine, this is our fear.  That David will stop responding to his meds, and then be seen as a threat by law enforcement. Once he turns 18, we will have little ability to ensure that he takes his medications, unless we get… Continue Reading

Attention Seeking RAD

I tend to forget, and I shouldn’t. Every action is designed to get attention. Every behavior is designed to get attention. I asked him this morning, “what do you gain from this behavior?” His answer?  “I don’t know”   —————— I wish that he did.  I would much rather award positive behavior, than the negative… Continue Reading


What is it like to live in fear? Having never lived in a war zone, or been active in a war zone, I can’t say that our experience compares to that. What I can say is this. Living day to day on edge constantly because you don’t know from one minute to the next what… Continue Reading

Looking back

We fought so hard to keep from placing David in a facility.  Now, we are fighting to keep him there. I never would have thought this day would come.  Last year at this time, we were upset because we had to move him to a new facility. This year I would love to know that… Continue Reading

Happy One Year Placement Anniversary David

Ironically, the day after we receive notice of denial of coverage of services for our son, is the anniversary of his placement at the current facility.  It has been one year since we placed David in a facility 500 miles from home. Today, I am struggling with the stress of not knowing where we are… Continue Reading

a new year, more medicaid frustration

So what else is new?  right? Received this notice from the facility where our son resides. I am sure you will be receiving a hard copy in the mail, but I wanted to notify you that as of 1/10/2015, David’s  Medicaid has denied coverage for residential care and we were notified of this yesterday. (See… Continue Reading

a very real fear this Christmas

Just received the weekly report that encompasses all of the week not just the immediate emergence of chronic cases. Today was another “off” day. David destroyed a bunch of recently created Christmas decorations that his peers had made.  Evidently he was upset. He did a number of other things, including trying to run away.  He… Continue Reading

At a loss, with tears rolling.

Dad’s are supposed to be able to fix things. I can’t fix this. I can’t undo the damage caused by a selfish woman who did not think of her unborn child when she proceeded to get herself loaded up on drugs. Continue Reading

an update. close watch again

David is on close watch again.  He is under the belief that no matter what he does there, he is going to be moved to another facility. But that is not entirely why he is on close watch.  He is on close watch because: he climbed to the top of his closet and hid there.… Continue Reading