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Taking a Chance on Faith

Taking a Chance on Faith

English: "Faith" and "Hope"
English: “Faith” and “Hope” in stained glass, Llandenny church (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

With a lot of prayer, we are going to try a visit away from the safety and comfort that being in close proximity to the facility provides us.  This is about taking a chance.

We are going to take a chance on faith that he is stable.  This weekend, we are going to travel to the city to get David and take him for a 6 hour pass.  That pass isn’t going to bring him home.  Rather we are traveling to see his sister and give her some things that she forgot when she was home for Easter from college.

A chance.

I don’t know what we are going to feel.  I don’t know how to feel about this.  I just know that with deep prayer and meditation we are going to try.  David had a rough day yesterday and hit one of his peers, so I am under no illusions that we will see perfect behavior.  I’d settle for him just being an average teenager.  It’s a chance that we are willingly going to take.

I don’t know if this will bring him closer to coming home or not.  This is about a chance.

A chance for hope.

I am putting my faith in the people who have been helping him through this difficult period in his life.  Are we wrong to have hope?

Whether you are a person of faith, a believer in strong positive thoughts, or someone who prefers not to share how they feel, please keep us in your thoughts.  Pray that we have a good family visit this weekend.  That our time together will begin the process of repairing the damage his behaviors and our reactions to them have caused, caused a rift to develop in our home.  He deserves better from us, and we deserve better from ourselves and from him.

I have to believe that he is meant for more than this.  And that through our trials, we are also meant for more.

Thank you.

 

Mr School Van Driver

Good morning my friends.  Hope this note finds you well. Yesterday was an excellent day. This morning, David was in full on mode.  Jumping from topic to topic so quickly that we couldn’t keep up.  In the course of 30 minutes, I bet he talked about 50 different things.  When he is like this there… Continue Reading

Back in the Hospital – was – The Dilemma – What to do with David

This has been something of a roller coaster week. I was in Indianapolis for the National Disability Rights Network annual conference.  Some fantastic networking opportunities.  A lot of great information, fabulous food and weather. At home, David was busy doing what David does. At the top of the list? He forged a check. He was… Continue Reading

Five days in May

So, insurance has said we have five days.  That means on Friday he could be discharged. How frustrated am I? The safety of my family is of utmost importance.  That includes David. The social worker told me that this is what happens in acute care cases. I’d like them to define acute care. Tweet #fighting4answrs Continue Reading

A new fear – Talking with dead friends

Last night was scary.  Not sure what happened exactly, but David is back in the hospital. At 8pm, with his bedtime medicines he gets a snack.  He wanted oatmeal, instead I gave him a granola bar. He said that he would hurt me if I didn’t give him the right snack.  He made a move… Continue Reading

I am bored and this is fun.

Today, I had the rare opportunity to have a frank talk with David.  We talked about everything from sunshine to cats.  We talked about his favorite movie, Heaven is for Real. We talked about dogs, rain, basketball (though I am by no means knowledgeable) and we talked behaviors. We talked about how he likes being… Continue Reading

some lessons need to be learned…

Some lessons need to be learned the hard way I guess. At breakfast David was in his usual mood.   I always get irritated when the he puts an empty cereal container back in the cupboard.  I told him that it bugs me. “But dad, there is cereal still in there!”  he said. So I shook… Continue Reading

hmmm Toby you smell bad

Toby is our Pomeranian.  David decided that since Toby hadn’t had a haircut and bath recently that he would deodorize him.  So he sprayed him with a Lysol type spray. So far the dog hasn’t gotten sick. And he did get a bath and hair cut this past weekend. We have explained before that he… Continue Reading

Held Hostage by Mental Illness

Some days, I feel like a hostage in my own home. Held hostage by mental illness.  Seriously.  David had a couple of really good days.  Mom took him into the city, he spent time with his favorite Aunt.  Life was good for him. Then there are days like today.  If it isn’t his way, then… Continue Reading

the enemy within

David is his own worst enemy. With the increase in behaviors, our psych team has discussed changing one of his medicines.  We aren’t doing a wholesale med wash like we used to do.  Rather we are increasing one of the stabilizers.   Hopefully we will see a change. When we met with the psych team, I… Continue Reading