Tag Archives: sleep

my Kingdom for…

David has been in placement at the psychiatric residential treatment facility (PRTF) for 6 weeks.

I still find myself keeping odd hours like I am keeping track of what he is doing in the middle of the night. In the evening I doze a bit, and then am up half the night as per the routine when he was home.

Prior to his return home last January, he was gone for more than two years and I still had this pattern of sleep.  Up in the middle of the night, sleep during the day.  I find that I have a difficult time sleeping in a regular bed.  Even when I stay in hotels I tend to sleep on the couch rather than the bed.  Too bad hotels don’t have rooms with just a couch, a tv, and a bathroom.  I don’t need the bed.

I am not sure what the future holds for David.  The odd thing is that even though I know he is safe in the facility, I find myself searching the house at random times looking for him, to get him out of whatever trouble he is getting himself into.

I wonder if I could ever sleep like everyone else.  At night in a bed.  My kingdom for a regular sleep pattern.  On the other hand, maybe this is my regular.  Should just accept it and move on?

Most Excellent

Today was a most excellent day.  We had a brief tantrum right before bed, but he had a busy day. We got up.  Had breakfast. Then.  We started in the garage.  Dug out the mower.  So that he could get started mowing.  While he was mowing where I was planning to work on windows today,… Continue Reading

sleep talking

David talks in his sleep. We carry on regular conversations every night.  Mostly because I have learned that if I don’t respond when he is talking, he will wake up and it takes forever to get him to go back to sleep. Tonight, he wanted to know how to describe the apple products.  Since I… Continue Reading

Feel Guilty? No!

Attention grabber isn’t it? As a stay at home dad of five kids, or which three have a special need of some kind, I am at the forefront of all activities in our home.  As it should be.  With our youngest son David and his increasing need for near constant attention, the pace is increasing. … Continue Reading

its not about the gum.

So today, I have had four hours of sleep.  I got about 40 minutes this morning from 5:40 to 6:20am.  then I got about an hour later in mid-morning.  Then I got two hours mid-afternoon. I woke up to discover that my cell phone was missing.  I woke up with heartburn and went to get… Continue Reading


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